I have nothing left to fear
These are only walls that hold me here
Hold me here, hold me here
ASHLEY COMMANDING OFFICER.
...just got back from Asheville. Why, you ask? Dog show. Yes, dog show. I accompanied Ms. Linda and Edward (the dog) to Asheville to watch a dog show. New experience? Definitely. It was interesting to see the "ins and outs" so to speak. It's crazy how many breeds of dog there are. Everything from Great Dane's who look like, well...a horse, to toy Chihuahuas that can fit in my pocket.
Edward did all right but unfortunately did not beat out this competition this go 'round. However, I did make friends with a Staffordshire Terrier who looks like a tiny Pitt Bull. His name was Ivan the TerriBull. I thought that was genius. He won Grand Champion. I make epic, grand champion friends at dog shows, apparently.
Overall, Asheville was lovely. The mountains are always beautiful, no matter the time of year. I just wish we were able to take in more of the sights. I was greatly disappointed not to have been able to see the Biltmore House and be all touristy. Maybe next time?
In other news I start orientation for LMC tomorrow. I'm excited, yes. However, I am not excited about the prospect of waking up at 0600 only to be greeted by a maze and a picture right off the bat. Breakfast and lunch are provided though! That's pretty sweet. I'm a little anxious about it all. Do I doubt my abilities? Who doesn't. Do I think I'm a bad nurse? Absolutely not. I just get these anxious spells from time to time. Especially right before I start something new. It's just starting all over again. Starting over sucks.
I've been anxious about a lot of other things lately too. I'm blessed beyond measure, it's true. With that said, I can't help but worry about things such as money and the future here lately. It's no secret that Tomato and I have worked hard and have created a comfortable life for ourselves. I just wonder, what if that all gets taken from us? What if we no longer have this stable income? What happens if I get laid off? If Timmy doesn't get selected? When are we going to start a family? Should we? When are we going to buy a house? What kind of vehicle should we get next (we sold the Blazer and NEED another mode of transportation AS SOON AS Timmy gets home)? What happens when Zero gets old? Where are we going to live with Timmy gets back? Will I get into graduate school? Does Timmy want to stay in the Marine Corps? Am I doing the right thing with my life? Why is Verizon being such a bag full of douche? How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?!
Life's questions, remain answerless. That makes me nervous. Not having a plan, makes me nervous. Tomato not being here to console me and keep me grounded, makes me nervous.
I hate being nervous. I loathe being nervous. Being nervous, makes me nervous.
Luckily I've been trying to keep busy. It's been almost a month since Tomato left and time has flown by so far. I've been working on my deployment goals lately. So far: I've gotten a job, Zero's had his preneuterment workup, I've traveled to Asheville this month, have sent three care packages, have read two books, been to church once, saved some cash, and have been well on my way to paying things off. That's good, I guess.
TOMATO, THE HUBS.
...is still gone. I love him.
He's doing well. I love him.
ZERO, THE DRAGON.
...his face is healing up, which is good. He still HATES his antibiotics and it's all I can do to get him to swallow them...not matter how disguised they are. He's my heart and soul through this deployment and I missed him fiercely while I was gone.
30 DAY PHOTO CHALLENGE
Day 20
(somewhere you'd love to travel)
Plans are in the works. :)
Song of the Day
Letters From the Sky by Civil Twilight
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